Confrontations
Confronting people is always hard. But with me it's especially hard because I have such horrifying fears about what will happen when I do confront the person. What will they say? What will they think? All the usuals that we process through our brain when we have someone we need to confront. But really for me, it is utterly terrifying.
I've had to confront many people recently and have to still confront a few more. It always takes so much courage for me to do so. I'm always afraid of the consequence or end result and about 99% of the time go into it thinking the worst, never the best. All I know is that God has been putting me in these situations so I can deal with people and continue growing in how to confront my fears and confront others in a loving, biblical way.
For far too long I've done this in an unhealthy way and have run away from confrontations as much as possible. I can no longer run...I can no longer hide...I'm getting too old for this. I must face my fears head on and ask God for the strength to do so.
And it's really because of boundary issues. Man...that word...that book! What an excellent book. God has certainly used it to heal my heart and provide me tools and resources in how to best deal with situations I've been in or currently am in. It's been a huge help in understanding why I feel the emotions I do, why I interact the way I do, and how my background has totally shaped my personal relationships with others. The only way I will continue to grow is if I keep facing these fears, confronting others in love, and dealing with the problem!
Lord, help me not to cower and dodge, parry and sway from my convictions. Make me as bold as a lion, though I feel like a mouse. Strengthen me inside. Grant me Your resolve.
Tomorrow I'm going to try to confront at least one other person. Pray for God to give me the grace and the courage to say what is on my heart without fear of how the other person will react. Pray I'll just say it as it is and allow God to work as He will.
Time for bed...
I've had to confront many people recently and have to still confront a few more. It always takes so much courage for me to do so. I'm always afraid of the consequence or end result and about 99% of the time go into it thinking the worst, never the best. All I know is that God has been putting me in these situations so I can deal with people and continue growing in how to confront my fears and confront others in a loving, biblical way.
For far too long I've done this in an unhealthy way and have run away from confrontations as much as possible. I can no longer run...I can no longer hide...I'm getting too old for this. I must face my fears head on and ask God for the strength to do so.
And it's really because of boundary issues. Man...that word...that book! What an excellent book. God has certainly used it to heal my heart and provide me tools and resources in how to best deal with situations I've been in or currently am in. It's been a huge help in understanding why I feel the emotions I do, why I interact the way I do, and how my background has totally shaped my personal relationships with others. The only way I will continue to grow is if I keep facing these fears, confronting others in love, and dealing with the problem!
Lord, help me not to cower and dodge, parry and sway from my convictions. Make me as bold as a lion, though I feel like a mouse. Strengthen me inside. Grant me Your resolve.
Tomorrow I'm going to try to confront at least one other person. Pray for God to give me the grace and the courage to say what is on my heart without fear of how the other person will react. Pray I'll just say it as it is and allow God to work as He will.
Time for bed...
This entry was posted by Christopher Wu, on
Monday, December 12, 2005.
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12:05 AM
Thanks for sharing dude. It's great to hear that God is stretching you in this way and that you facing some of your most difficult struggles. Press on, press in. You are in my prayers.
And faithful readers, if you too are curious about this Boundaries book that Chris has mentioned in this post, you can get it here.