As I ended last week at about 90% of my support raised, I was filled with so much emotion I couldn't contain it. After a great appointment Thursday morning, I went home singing in the car, doing some stupid hip-hop moves, and screaming at the top of my lungs. I was so excited to be almost done with my support. It was such an amazing feeling, I can't even describe it to you. Thank you so much for your prayers and support. I am almost there...

Along with that excitement came the sobering reality that I'm about to leave home. I'm about to leave all that is familiar behind me and go into God's mission. No more mom's cooking, no more Shogi, no more New York and great Chinese food :) I'll be moving all my furniture, probably selling half the stuff I don't need, and packing up all my childhood memories with me; leaving for good basically...

How did I come to this, I wonder? Sharing my testimony on Friday night at CT Elmhurst brought it back to the beginning. Man...how I was so messed up before I knew Christ! I'm still messed up in a lot of ways, but the work of Christ's santification has begun in me and will continue until the last day; I'm a work in progress.

Sometimes you lose sight of how great His grace is. Thinking back to how much of a sinner I was filled my heart with so much gratitude and brought me back to the days when I had childlike faith-it wasn't about ambition and calling and the complicated stuff of "doing ministry" for God. I was just in love with Him. Wrapped up in something so much bigger than me that all I could do was worship Him. Why have I lost sight of that? Lord, forgive me...renew my faith so I see you as just Savior, Lord, and best friend.

Two verses come to mind as I reflect on these things this night. The first is from Luke 9:62 about the cost of following Jesus.

No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.

And the second is from the same passage, three verses earlier:

Follow Me

This will probably sound silly to some of you, but I am finally growing up. I'm 25, but I've never REALLY left. I've left at times, but always with home there as my base, the place I would come back to. But in the years to come I'm not so sure I'll ever be doing that again. Sure, I'll come back to visit and stay for a time, but never again in the same way...I don't think so...

The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hiddne in a field, which a man found and covered up. then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that filed. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls, who, on finding one pearl of great value, went and sold all that he had and bought it. -Matt. 13:44-46

God's calling me to sell out. No looking back. Forward, forward I must go. I'll be packing up soon and "cleaning house." Pray I'll leave well and pray I'll leave in peace. Pray I'll leave completely and come under the full headship of my new parent, my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ. He's always been my parent, but now He really is now that I'm leaving the nest. Night all. Thanks for being a part of my ministry. I know I can't do this without you and need the body to come together for His mission and ministry. May we continue to serve Him together for His glory.

Christ is all and in all -Col. 3:11

This entry was posted by Christopher Wu, on Wednesday, May 04, 2005. You can leave your response.