Fatigue
Recently it's been harder and harder for me to find energy to do any sort of work. I find myself extremely exhausted nearly all the time. Praise the Lord He gives me the strength to be able to get through my days, but I definitely think there's also a fine line between perseverance and not knowing when to stop and just rest.
When I am awake I want to sleep and when I'm asleep I want to be awake. I am constantly in-between never able to be fully present at each moment of the day...
Jesus said, "I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." (John 10:10)
I am not experiencing the abundant life because of my fatigue.
Please pray for me as I've been struggling to do anything at all. The smallest tasks I find hard to do and my energy level is so low...this factor has definitely contributed to my lack of consistency with updating you all about what's happening in life and ministry.
Day in and day out I long to write about my experiences. I have so much to share but just the very thought of sitting down and concentrating to write is exhausting to me. Pray that God would restore my health and revive my energy levels so I can be an effective minister of the gospel.
Recently, the Lord has convicted me about the lack of peace and joy in my life. Part of the reason I struggle so much with sleep is because I go to bed with a head full of anxiety. I can't truly rest because I'm not trusting that God is in control. In fact, I'm not trusting in God's control because I want to be in control!
Martha syndrome is so easy to catch in the Christian life. You would think that being a missionary automatically makes you immune to it because more spiritual or something, or that you're in a perpetual state of bliss with the Lord. Nothing could be further from the truth!
The temptation for me is to do things for God while neglecting my relationship with Him. This is exactly how laborers in ministry or in the missions field get totally burnt out and lose focus of what they're really doing all of this for.
I have to constantly remind myself that serving God full-time is because I love the Lord and am following Him. Yes, it is a "job," in the vocational sense, but it can't be my duty. And it should flow out of my relationship with God.
"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"
-Jesus (Matthew 11:28)
When I am awake I want to sleep and when I'm asleep I want to be awake. I am constantly in-between never able to be fully present at each moment of the day...
Jesus said, "I came that they may have life and have it abundantly." (John 10:10)
I am not experiencing the abundant life because of my fatigue.
Please pray for me as I've been struggling to do anything at all. The smallest tasks I find hard to do and my energy level is so low...this factor has definitely contributed to my lack of consistency with updating you all about what's happening in life and ministry.
Day in and day out I long to write about my experiences. I have so much to share but just the very thought of sitting down and concentrating to write is exhausting to me. Pray that God would restore my health and revive my energy levels so I can be an effective minister of the gospel.
Recently, the Lord has convicted me about the lack of peace and joy in my life. Part of the reason I struggle so much with sleep is because I go to bed with a head full of anxiety. I can't truly rest because I'm not trusting that God is in control. In fact, I'm not trusting in God's control because I want to be in control!
Martha syndrome is so easy to catch in the Christian life. You would think that being a missionary automatically makes you immune to it because more spiritual or something, or that you're in a perpetual state of bliss with the Lord. Nothing could be further from the truth!
The temptation for me is to do things for God while neglecting my relationship with Him. This is exactly how laborers in ministry or in the missions field get totally burnt out and lose focus of what they're really doing all of this for.
I have to constantly remind myself that serving God full-time is because I love the Lord and am following Him. Yes, it is a "job," in the vocational sense, but it can't be my duty. And it should flow out of my relationship with God.
"Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"
-Jesus (Matthew 11:28)
This entry was posted by Christopher Wu, on
Wednesday, September 28, 2005.
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